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Today, I was on the verge of a melt down- a small one. It would have been my 2nd one since we got here. Hey, I'm thinking that's not too bad : ) My cleaning gals had just left (still such a foreign concept for me!!), and I was able to take a deep breathe. It's just kinda really odd for me to have people here cleaning up after me! I feel this compulsive need to help them, but I've been told not to though and let them "do their thing". I did do the "team" approach on her first time with me and helped her make the beds....just can't help it! She came back for something- I don't even know for what because she got sidetracked "helping" me cook lunch. Oh my, the frustration began to set in as I was NOT understanding what she was trying to tell me. Bless her heart, she just smiles and then starts speaking very slowly and makes me repeat what she saying. Okay, so I'm kinda learning to repeat what she's saying, but I have no clue WHAT I'm saying. She just smiles at me like I've got it. Wow, I never really learned how to cook while understanding english, and now I'm trying to learn it in another language? LOL!!! Apparently, I was even using the "wrong" size rice bowls, too. I think she felt sorry for me when she opened the fridge (and basically saw nothing!). She left and came back with 3 tomatoes and some green onions, and "other" things. I was just happy that I actually was cooking rice for AA's lunch, but I think she couldn't imagine that anyone wanted to eat plain rice (which AA does like). After she finished concocting some lunch for us she set it on the table and told us to sit down. I was telling the girls to sit down and say thank you because she had gone to a lot of trouble. She insisted that we pour it on our rice, and AA was making "yucky" faces. I was kicking AA under the table (if you know what I mean!). I decided to try it and it was good. THEN...Abigail and I spotted something. Something that looked rather "wormish". Needless to say, the melt down began...
So back to Audrey An. My little semi melt down made me think and cherish Audrey An's transition into our family. I am just having such a better appreciation for my sweet and resilient daughter! I can't imagine what life was like for you beginning 18 months ago! What I'm experiencing is such a small glimmer of your transition into your new world. I have a husband and two daughters who can understand me. You had no one and nothing familiar to you! I have so much to learn from you. You have lived in 3 countries in 18 months and are now being exposed to your 3rd language. YOU, my child, are one amazing little cookie... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!
Okay, David will be home in a few hours. Dinner....what to do, what to do!
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